Holding Back The Tears

Holding Back The Tears

Author: Annie Mitchell

Publisher: Rose Garden Press

Published: 2013-09-16

Total Pages: 210

ISBN-13: 1843961229

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This is true story about real people is set in Edinburgh City and Dundee, where a petite Scottish Lassie called Rosie Gilmour, mother to Finlay Sinclair, receives news of the death of her son - who tragically has taken his own life by hanging. Rosie pretends her son is still alive by talking to him, for that takes away the unbearable pain of her loss. But once she begins to face up to the fact that Finlay is not coming back, her conversations become more of a challenge than she can handle. When memories of her past are triggered by everyday life events, they take her mind back and forth in time - back to her own childhood days in 1960, when she flirted with the fairground boys, and to the day she gave birth to Finlay - ''ME LADDIE''. Rosie's Scottish accent becomes more apparent whenever her emotions are heightened and she begins to recite poetry. She goes on to reveal doubts about her own self-worth and and how she re-unites her role as mother - a role she had denied herself for seven years prior to Finlay's death. Rosie learns how to forgive herself and how to accept her loss with using practical coping strategies that sometimes but not always work for her. Many voices of different natures and walks of life appear in Rosie's, story with each one offering a part of their own belief to try and console her in her misery - except that she turns her back on any advice or support offered. Rosie is convinced that she can cope with her loss on her own and "e;needs no help from anyone, thank you"e; - until a sweet, gentle, soft-spoken voice begins to travel with her throughout her ordeal, leaving her no other choice but to listen. Eventually moving to the countryside in Angus, Rosie finds the isolation gives her life a new meaning offering her the opportunity to re-value her belief's about her own self values and decides the time has come to give her son a memorial service and invite a chosen few dance companions whom she met on a regular basis in Edinburgh to honour this day. Rosie begins to accept she will never be the same person she once had been and shall never be again, believing now her journey through grief taught her many lessons making her a stronger and better person than she imagined she could ever be.


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Download or read book Holding Back The Tears written by Annie Mitchell and published by Rose Garden Press. This book was released on 2013-09-16 with total page 210 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: This is true story about real people is set in Edinburgh City and Dundee, where a petite Scottish Lassie called Rosie Gilmour, mother to Finlay Sinclair, receives news of the death of her son - who tragically has taken his own life by hanging. Rosie pretends her son is still alive by talking to him, for that takes away the unbearable pain of her loss. But once she begins to face up to the fact that Finlay is not coming back, her conversations become more of a challenge than she can handle. When memories of her past are triggered by everyday life events, they take her mind back and forth in time - back to her own childhood days in 1960, when she flirted with the fairground boys, and to the day she gave birth to Finlay - ''ME LADDIE''. Rosie's Scottish accent becomes more apparent whenever her emotions are heightened and she begins to recite poetry. She goes on to reveal doubts about her own self-worth and and how she re-unites her role as mother - a role she had denied herself for seven years prior to Finlay's death. Rosie learns how to forgive herself and how to accept her loss with using practical coping strategies that sometimes but not always work for her. Many voices of different natures and walks of life appear in Rosie's, story with each one offering a part of their own belief to try and console her in her misery - except that she turns her back on any advice or support offered. Rosie is convinced that she can cope with her loss on her own and "e;needs no help from anyone, thank you"e; - until a sweet, gentle, soft-spoken voice begins to travel with her throughout her ordeal, leaving her no other choice but to listen. Eventually moving to the countryside in Angus, Rosie finds the isolation gives her life a new meaning offering her the opportunity to re-value her belief's about her own self values and decides the time has come to give her son a memorial service and invite a chosen few dance companions whom she met on a regular basis in Edinburgh to honour this day. Rosie begins to accept she will never be the same person she once had been and shall never be again, believing now her journey through grief taught her many lessons making her a stronger and better person than she imagined she could ever be.

Steph, Tears of Secrets

Steph, Tears of Secrets

Author: Tanya A Guinness

Publisher: Austin Macauley Publishers

Published: 2024-02-02

Total Pages: 359

ISBN-13: 1528995481

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Steph’s life is thrown into turmoil when her past catches up with her. All the abuse she tried to hide, she is now forced to confront. Will she be mentally strong enough to survive a court case? Her heart is confused, unsure who to turn to and who to trust, doubting herself and her choices. How will Steph, with her ambition to further her career, manage to protect her family? Brett and Keith had always helped her in her past. Can her biker friends save Steph again, or will trouble just follow them? Elizabeth was growing up with questions about her father. All the secrets Steph had tried to protect her daughter from are they secrets no more? Can Elizabeth handle the truth? Or will losing her best friend push her over the edge? Brett and Steph share one last night before Brett disappears on the run from the law. Adrien and Steph’s friendship grows stronger as they raise Steph’s new daughter, Stacey. With more secrets, will Stacey ever know the identity of her birth father? Will Steph ever find her true love? Will she ever see Brett again?


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Download or read book Steph, Tears of Secrets written by Tanya A Guinness and published by Austin Macauley Publishers. This book was released on 2024-02-02 with total page 359 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Steph’s life is thrown into turmoil when her past catches up with her. All the abuse she tried to hide, she is now forced to confront. Will she be mentally strong enough to survive a court case? Her heart is confused, unsure who to turn to and who to trust, doubting herself and her choices. How will Steph, with her ambition to further her career, manage to protect her family? Brett and Keith had always helped her in her past. Can her biker friends save Steph again, or will trouble just follow them? Elizabeth was growing up with questions about her father. All the secrets Steph had tried to protect her daughter from are they secrets no more? Can Elizabeth handle the truth? Or will losing her best friend push her over the edge? Brett and Steph share one last night before Brett disappears on the run from the law. Adrien and Steph’s friendship grows stronger as they raise Steph’s new daughter, Stacey. With more secrets, will Stacey ever know the identity of her birth father? Will Steph ever find her true love? Will she ever see Brett again?

Beyond Tears

Beyond Tears

Author: Kathleen Steele

Publisher: AuthorHouse

Published: 2018-11-30

Total Pages: 156

ISBN-13: 1546270698

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BEYOND TEARS is based on the true story of James and Rosanna Steele and their six children when faced with experiencing the devastation of the 1900 Galveston, Texas Hurricane. It remains the worst National disaster to hit the United States of America in the loss of life.


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Download or read book Beyond Tears written by Kathleen Steele and published by AuthorHouse. This book was released on 2018-11-30 with total page 156 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: BEYOND TEARS is based on the true story of James and Rosanna Steele and their six children when faced with experiencing the devastation of the 1900 Galveston, Texas Hurricane. It remains the worst National disaster to hit the United States of America in the loss of life.

ELPASO

ELPASO

Author: Benjamin Villegas

Publisher: Deep Vellum Publishing

Published: 2021-08-17

Total Pages: 272

ISBN-13: 1646050622

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In 2015, Benjamin Villegas traveled to Texas in an attempt to write the biography of a music group that could have changed the history of rock: ELPASO, a Chicano band from the U.S.-Mexico border with a punk sensibility, a long since-defunct crew, and little left to remember it by but a suitcase of fanzines and one-off recordings. This is the story of one of the many bands that will never appear in rock n’ roll history books, but is at the core of the scene; a band that earned its stripes from sweaty fans and self-taught rock aficionados in basements, garages, and small venues across the country. This is the story of two kids who came together to embrace the punk ethos of the 80’s and be a part of the rock n’ roll revolution sweeping the US, a world of the Ramones, Black Flag, and, of course, ELPASO.


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Download or read book ELPASO written by Benjamin Villegas and published by Deep Vellum Publishing. This book was released on 2021-08-17 with total page 272 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In 2015, Benjamin Villegas traveled to Texas in an attempt to write the biography of a music group that could have changed the history of rock: ELPASO, a Chicano band from the U.S.-Mexico border with a punk sensibility, a long since-defunct crew, and little left to remember it by but a suitcase of fanzines and one-off recordings. This is the story of one of the many bands that will never appear in rock n’ roll history books, but is at the core of the scene; a band that earned its stripes from sweaty fans and self-taught rock aficionados in basements, garages, and small venues across the country. This is the story of two kids who came together to embrace the punk ethos of the 80’s and be a part of the rock n’ roll revolution sweeping the US, a world of the Ramones, Black Flag, and, of course, ELPASO.

Amelia Island’s Golden Years, Silver Tears

Amelia Island’s Golden Years, Silver Tears

Author: Maggie Carter-de Vries

Publisher: AuthorHouse

Published: 2014-05-14

Total Pages: 240

ISBN-13: 1496908260

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The story takes up where “Amelia’s Secrets” left off; after the murder trial held in Jacksonville, Florida where the accused, great-great-grandson of President Thomas Jefferson, T. J. Eppes murderer of one of his best friends and father of six children walks out of the courtroom a free man. He returns to Amelia Island there to carry on life as usual with his beautiful young bride Katie, expecting their first child, only to find life for her to be a daily trial by a jury of her peers; an impossible situation in the end. Our protagonist John Whitner describes in detail not only their lives culminating in the great hurricane of 1898, which nearly devastates the island but through the lives of the Carnegies of Cumberland Island, Mrs. Leddy owner and operator of the Florida House Hotel and her only child Grace from age eight through her progression to adulthood, marriage, babies and widowhood at the young age of twenty one. John, himself reveals his journey through all this, his relationship with Pauline; it’s ups and downs, a new woman in his life (or women) as well as his passion for photography in the many places he visits, Jekyl Island, Charleston, S. C. during the earthquake of 1886 and Chicago’s World’s fair of 1893. Meticulous research and beautiful descriptions bring nineteenth century Amelia Island to life. With creative flair, Ms. Carter-de Vries uses the first person narrative of her storyteller, John Whitner, to recreate the turbulence of natural disasters and society’s mores and make the past inhabitants of Amelia Island walk off the pages. Whether you’re a visitor to the island or a life-long resident, you will find much to enjoy in Carter-de Vries’ Golden Years, Silver Tears. Karen White New York Times bestselling author THE TIME BETWEEN, NAL/Penguin Publishing Group June 2013


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Download or read book Amelia Island’s Golden Years, Silver Tears written by Maggie Carter-de Vries and published by AuthorHouse. This book was released on 2014-05-14 with total page 240 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: The story takes up where “Amelia’s Secrets” left off; after the murder trial held in Jacksonville, Florida where the accused, great-great-grandson of President Thomas Jefferson, T. J. Eppes murderer of one of his best friends and father of six children walks out of the courtroom a free man. He returns to Amelia Island there to carry on life as usual with his beautiful young bride Katie, expecting their first child, only to find life for her to be a daily trial by a jury of her peers; an impossible situation in the end. Our protagonist John Whitner describes in detail not only their lives culminating in the great hurricane of 1898, which nearly devastates the island but through the lives of the Carnegies of Cumberland Island, Mrs. Leddy owner and operator of the Florida House Hotel and her only child Grace from age eight through her progression to adulthood, marriage, babies and widowhood at the young age of twenty one. John, himself reveals his journey through all this, his relationship with Pauline; it’s ups and downs, a new woman in his life (or women) as well as his passion for photography in the many places he visits, Jekyl Island, Charleston, S. C. during the earthquake of 1886 and Chicago’s World’s fair of 1893. Meticulous research and beautiful descriptions bring nineteenth century Amelia Island to life. With creative flair, Ms. Carter-de Vries uses the first person narrative of her storyteller, John Whitner, to recreate the turbulence of natural disasters and society’s mores and make the past inhabitants of Amelia Island walk off the pages. Whether you’re a visitor to the island or a life-long resident, you will find much to enjoy in Carter-de Vries’ Golden Years, Silver Tears. Karen White New York Times bestselling author THE TIME BETWEEN, NAL/Penguin Publishing Group June 2013

Tears of Shand'ara

Tears of Shand'ara

Author: George Teixeira

Publisher: Infinity Publishing

Published: 2006-06

Total Pages: 665

ISBN-13: 0741433214

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In an ancient world of fantasy and magic, good battles two evils. The chosen of Light and Darkness battle for the future of Sho're, and the people of Brian's Loft.


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Download or read book Tears of Shand'ara written by George Teixeira and published by Infinity Publishing. This book was released on 2006-06 with total page 665 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: In an ancient world of fantasy and magic, good battles two evils. The chosen of Light and Darkness battle for the future of Sho're, and the people of Brian's Loft.

These Letters End in Tears

These Letters End in Tears

Author: Musih Tedji Xaviere

Publisher: Catapult

Published: 2024-03-12

Total Pages: 241

ISBN-13: 1646221869

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Set in a country where being gay is punishable by law, These Letters End in Tears is the heart-wrenching forbidden love story of a Christian girl with a rebellious heart and a Muslim girl leading a double life Bessem notices Fatima for the first time on the soccer field—muscular and focused, she’s the only woman playing and seems completely at ease. When Fatima chases a rogue ball in her direction, Bessem freezes, mesmerized by the athlete’s charm and beauty. One playful wink from Fatima, and Bessem knows her life will never be the same. In Cameroon, a country where same-sex relationships are punishable by law, the odds are stacked against Bessem and Fatima from the start. And when Fatima’s older brother, a staunch Muslim, finds out about their affair, he intervenes by physically assaulting them, an incident that precedes a police raid at the only gay bar in town. After spending days in jail, Fatima goes missing without a trace, and Bessem is left with only rumors of her whereabouts. Has Fatima been sentenced to an unknown prison? Has she been banished from her community, or married off, as some have suggested? Or something even more sinister? Thirteen years later, Bessem is now a university professor leading a relatively quiet life, occasionally and secretly dating other women. However, she has never forgotten Fatima. After spotting a mutual friend for the first time in years—the last person who may have seen Fatima—Bessem embarks on a winding search for her lost love.


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Download or read book These Letters End in Tears written by Musih Tedji Xaviere and published by Catapult. This book was released on 2024-03-12 with total page 241 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: Set in a country where being gay is punishable by law, These Letters End in Tears is the heart-wrenching forbidden love story of a Christian girl with a rebellious heart and a Muslim girl leading a double life Bessem notices Fatima for the first time on the soccer field—muscular and focused, she’s the only woman playing and seems completely at ease. When Fatima chases a rogue ball in her direction, Bessem freezes, mesmerized by the athlete’s charm and beauty. One playful wink from Fatima, and Bessem knows her life will never be the same. In Cameroon, a country where same-sex relationships are punishable by law, the odds are stacked against Bessem and Fatima from the start. And when Fatima’s older brother, a staunch Muslim, finds out about their affair, he intervenes by physically assaulting them, an incident that precedes a police raid at the only gay bar in town. After spending days in jail, Fatima goes missing without a trace, and Bessem is left with only rumors of her whereabouts. Has Fatima been sentenced to an unknown prison? Has she been banished from her community, or married off, as some have suggested? Or something even more sinister? Thirteen years later, Bessem is now a university professor leading a relatively quiet life, occasionally and secretly dating other women. However, she has never forgotten Fatima. After spotting a mutual friend for the first time in years—the last person who may have seen Fatima—Bessem embarks on a winding search for her lost love.

Dying and Loving It

Dying and Loving It

Author: H.H. The Most Ven. Lama Rimpoche

Publisher: AuthorHouse

Published: 2012-10-02

Total Pages: 256

ISBN-13: 1477262539

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....In the unending definement of this book I honestly believe that people will find out soon enough what will happen to them when the moment of life's ending comes along, but it is my duty as both a dying patient, and as a woman of religion, to tell others who may not know, and to explain the best of my ability the atrocities that actually occured in this place.... ....Unlike most of the general masses I can hear many other pulses of life, but this all comes from knowing God and the child within as she absorbs the building tensions and rechannels that energy into a rightful and God-fearing direction, hence creating a fullfilling existence regardless if that same individual is hurting or is at peace....


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Download or read book Dying and Loving It written by H.H. The Most Ven. Lama Rimpoche and published by AuthorHouse. This book was released on 2012-10-02 with total page 256 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: ....In the unending definement of this book I honestly believe that people will find out soon enough what will happen to them when the moment of life's ending comes along, but it is my duty as both a dying patient, and as a woman of religion, to tell others who may not know, and to explain the best of my ability the atrocities that actually occured in this place.... ....Unlike most of the general masses I can hear many other pulses of life, but this all comes from knowing God and the child within as she absorbs the building tensions and rechannels that energy into a rightful and God-fearing direction, hence creating a fullfilling existence regardless if that same individual is hurting or is at peace....

My Brother Moochie

My Brother Moochie

Author: Issac J. Bailey

Publisher: Other Press, LLC

Published: 2018-05-29

Total Pages: 300

ISBN-13: 1590518616

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A rare first-person account that combines a journalist’s skilled reporting with the raw emotion of a younger brother’s heartfelt testimony of what his family endured after his eldest brother killed a man and was sentenced to life in prison. At the age of nine, Issac J. Bailey saw his hero, his eldest brother, taken away in handcuffs, not to return from prison for thirty-two years. Bailey tells the story of their relationship and of his experience living in a family suffering from guilt and shame. Drawing on sociological research as well as his expertise as a journalist, he seeks to answer the crucial question of why Moochie and many other young black men—including half of the ten boys in his own family—end up in the criminal justice system. What role do poverty, race, and faith play? What effect does living in the South, in the Bible Belt, have? And why is their experience understood as an acceptable trope for black men, while white people who commit crimes are never seen in this generalized way? My Brother Moochie provides a wide-ranging yet intensely intimate view of crime and incarceration in the United States, and the devastating effects on the incarcerated, their loved ones, their victims, and society as a whole. It also offers hope for families caught in the incarceration trap: though the Bailey family’s lows have included prison and bearing the responsibility for multiple deaths, their highs have included Harvard University, the White House, and a renewed sense of pride and understanding that presents a path forward.


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Download or read book My Brother Moochie written by Issac J. Bailey and published by Other Press, LLC. This book was released on 2018-05-29 with total page 300 pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: A rare first-person account that combines a journalist’s skilled reporting with the raw emotion of a younger brother’s heartfelt testimony of what his family endured after his eldest brother killed a man and was sentenced to life in prison. At the age of nine, Issac J. Bailey saw his hero, his eldest brother, taken away in handcuffs, not to return from prison for thirty-two years. Bailey tells the story of their relationship and of his experience living in a family suffering from guilt and shame. Drawing on sociological research as well as his expertise as a journalist, he seeks to answer the crucial question of why Moochie and many other young black men—including half of the ten boys in his own family—end up in the criminal justice system. What role do poverty, race, and faith play? What effect does living in the South, in the Bible Belt, have? And why is their experience understood as an acceptable trope for black men, while white people who commit crimes are never seen in this generalized way? My Brother Moochie provides a wide-ranging yet intensely intimate view of crime and incarceration in the United States, and the devastating effects on the incarcerated, their loved ones, their victims, and society as a whole. It also offers hope for families caught in the incarceration trap: though the Bailey family’s lows have included prison and bearing the responsibility for multiple deaths, their highs have included Harvard University, the White House, and a renewed sense of pride and understanding that presents a path forward.

Candle in the Window

Candle in the Window

Author: Barbara Johannsen

Publisher: Devine Destinies

Published: 2010-12-15

Total Pages:

ISBN-13: 1554877520

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When Jim Trask lands a job on a commercial fishing boat, his wife, Becca, fears the worst. She has lived by the ocean all her life and never managed to overcome her fear of it. Coping with Jimês absence is a chore, then her worry becomes reality when all communication with the boat is lost. Panicked, Becca searches for a beacon of hope, a way to cope with the awful fear that her beloved Jim may be lost at sea. Can Becca find solace while she waits to learn of Jimês fate? Can anything ease her fears? Or can Becca finally put Jimês fate in Godês hands and resign herself to His will?


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Download or read book Candle in the Window written by Barbara Johannsen and published by Devine Destinies. This book was released on 2010-12-15 with total page pages. Available in PDF, EPUB and Kindle. Book excerpt: When Jim Trask lands a job on a commercial fishing boat, his wife, Becca, fears the worst. She has lived by the ocean all her life and never managed to overcome her fear of it. Coping with Jimês absence is a chore, then her worry becomes reality when all communication with the boat is lost. Panicked, Becca searches for a beacon of hope, a way to cope with the awful fear that her beloved Jim may be lost at sea. Can Becca find solace while she waits to learn of Jimês fate? Can anything ease her fears? Or can Becca finally put Jimês fate in Godês hands and resign herself to His will?